Wednesday, April 30, 2014

House taking shape at Homegrown Farm!

We are a few more steps closer with our house really starting to take shape.  We are so excited with the progress and it is starting to feel a lot more real with each move forward.

I've just added mostly Instagram images to try and catch up!

Michael and his Dad have worked so hard on it and I'm so thankful.  They have done such an amazing job so far! 

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Blog anxiety...

So I love reading blogs...

All different types written by all sorts of different people.

It just proves to me that people are so unique and special in so many different ways.  We each have our own passions and ideas, troubles and challenges. 

All of the blogs I read inspire me in some way.  They encourage me to want to cook, create, play, farm, simplify, have fun, improve my relationships, make, photograph or just stop and be still.  To be grateful and present.  To appreciate who and what I have in my life.

The only downside to this, is that at times it stops me from blogging.

Which brings me to another point...

Why do I want to blog?

At times I thought it was because I wanted to try and create a business from home, because I wanted to be one of those people inspiring others, I wanted to prove that being at home with my kids could produce something "important".

Well, none of those things were enough to motivate me on a consistent basis.  It just confused me as to which direction to go in to make my blog important. I a mummy blogger? A health blogger? Simple living?  Aaaarrrggghhhh.

Nup.  I'm not going to fit into any one category. 

It also led me to compare myself...and somehow I could never match up.  How was I meant to share my life, my experiences when there were so many others doing it bigger and better than I was?

What I learnt in the process is that I don't want to be a writer or a photographer. I don't want to sell anything.  I can't change the world.  So many of these people, doing so many amazing things are paying a price that I'm not willing to.  It is the right path for them, but not for me.

So why do I really want to blog?

At the end of the day, I just want to record my family.  I want to be able to look back and remember this time of my life. 

It may be boring to everyone else out there, but I've decided this blog shouldn't be for "everyone else" it's for me.  And my children.  And my grandchildren. 

I truly adore my life, it is unique and I am pretty crazy - haha.  (Just ask my husband!)  I have gorgeous boys that I want to celebrate. 

I want to stop "trying" to be a blogger and just be a person with a blog.  I need to let go and just be me.  Honest and real.  Imperfect. 

Our lives are our ultimate creation.  We get to decide how to paint the canvas, and if we decide to change the entire colour scheme 100 times we can.  We can add texture and colour, or we can cover it in black and leave it lifeless.  We can start off influenced one way and completely change it to another.  We can cover it with white and start again, and again, and again. It's our choice.  It's our freedom. 

It scares me a little.  It's easier to pretend.  Who would have thought that it would be so hard to just be myself? 

Deep breath. 

Let's get on with it. 

Linking with Essentially Jess for #IBOT

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Earth hour campout and birthday celebration!

We had a great weekend celebrating Jayden's 4th, Dylan's 7th and Michael's 33rd birthdays!  We love that it coincides with Earth hour as well as we were roughing it for about 24 hours! 

We were so lucky the sun came out and it was a beautiful day as we had rain leading up to it and woke up Sunday morning to more rain as well.

I honestly can't believe the baby of our family is 4 years old!  It's just amazing how fast the time does go, and although I absolutely have those clucky moments when I miss the baby and toddler days I am also really enjoying this next season with older kids. 

We had a great group of friends and family share the afternoon with us.  We are so thankful!  Jenn and her family camped out with us which was a lot of fun. 
I actually forgot to take many photo's on the day, which I'm taking as a good sign that I was too busy enjoying it all to think about taking pictures, but Jenn did a great job of capturing some moments.

Jayden and Josie are such great little buddies...Jayden says he's going to marry Josie when he grows up!

Our family was a challenge to get everyone together but we got there! 

Beautiful sunset at the end of the day...gosh I love this place.  After a hot dry summer the grass is just starting to turn green.  The building is coming along slowly but surely but I will update in another post.